The very important thing that I've been needing to do, step one is done. Tomorrow will be step two and it will be on its way. That's all I can say right now.
Because I know this is going to be difficult, and because I was going to do it anyway, I am planning on participating in NaNoWriMo or National Novel Writing Month. What this means is that during the month of November, I am setting the goal of writing 150 pages in 30 days. If you want to know more about this, go to www.nanowrimo.com. Anyway, I'm hoping that this will serve as a distraction from the painful things in my life. My new roomie suggested that if I complete the task, if I make it to the 150 pages, I should celebrate with my next tattoo. We shall see about that when the time comes.
And for those of you who are praying/waiting for news on the difficult thing, I promise I will tell you more when it happens.
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Who says girls shouldn't talk about baseball?
Okay, so I may not know the most about baseball, and I might generally ignore it and even display disdain for the sport, but that was before my team made the World Series. This is something that hasn't happened in my lifetime, so now it's different. I still don't agree with what pro athletes are paid, but I'm setting that aside because I want to watch the White Sox win the World Series. As a kid I wanted to go watch the White Sox play in Oakland so that I could watch my favorite team kick my least favorite team's butt. Sounds silly, especially now as I realize I'd probably get beat up for doing such a thing in Oakland, but the point is that even though I don't watch baseball all the time, I have stayed loyal to my team. And since my comments regarding the White Sox have been disallowed from certain peoples' blogs (You know who you are, Noel) I will just make this entire post here.
WAY TO GO CHICAGO! ONLY THREE MORE GAMES!
WAY TO GO CHICAGO! ONLY THREE MORE GAMES!
Friday, October 21, 2005
Out of respect to Mr. H:
I am not going to post another really long response to his post. I feel as though we are taking over a bit. So here's my own post continuing the conversation/going off a bit.
I have to partially disagree and say that watching tv shows like Earl and developing a "feels okay to me" complex are not the only reasons why people view Christians as closed minded and rigid. Sometimes it's because some of us ARE closed-minded and rigid. I won't deny that I occasionally have such moments, as I'm sure we all do. I would say that most Christians, at least sometimes because we are sinful, speak the truth as a weapon or a threat rather than in love, and this is why some people view Christians as closed-minded and rigid. It is one thing to tell a friend/acquaintance that you are concerned for them because of how they are living their life. It is another entirely to flat out refuse to speak to someone because of their "sexual orientation" or different beliefs other than to tell them that what they are doing is wrong and they are going to hell. I have met Christians like that and I have to say, they may be a larger part of the reason people view us as "rigid and closed-minded." Don't get me wrong... I'm not trying to condemn them because I know that there are people that I, as a Christian, have also hurt and wronged.
I suppose all I'm really trying to say is while I/we may not agree with something that someone does, I prefer to follow the addage "love the sinner, hate the sin." I want to love the people in my life regardless of what they choose to watch/wear/eat/do. That does not mean that I support them in said actions and it does not mean that I will not speak the truth to them. But it does mean that I choose to love them no matter what because that is the example God has set for us. We can speak truth to them all we want, but the final judgment is God's to make. Also, how many times have we heard that condemnation is the tool of Satan? Calling someone out or speaking truth into their lives is one thing, but condemning one another is NEVER okay. Okay, now that I've got that all out... *Sighs*
Hope ya'll are having a lovely day!
I have to partially disagree and say that watching tv shows like Earl and developing a "feels okay to me" complex are not the only reasons why people view Christians as closed minded and rigid. Sometimes it's because some of us ARE closed-minded and rigid. I won't deny that I occasionally have such moments, as I'm sure we all do. I would say that most Christians, at least sometimes because we are sinful, speak the truth as a weapon or a threat rather than in love, and this is why some people view Christians as closed-minded and rigid. It is one thing to tell a friend/acquaintance that you are concerned for them because of how they are living their life. It is another entirely to flat out refuse to speak to someone because of their "sexual orientation" or different beliefs other than to tell them that what they are doing is wrong and they are going to hell. I have met Christians like that and I have to say, they may be a larger part of the reason people view us as "rigid and closed-minded." Don't get me wrong... I'm not trying to condemn them because I know that there are people that I, as a Christian, have also hurt and wronged.
I suppose all I'm really trying to say is while I/we may not agree with something that someone does, I prefer to follow the addage "love the sinner, hate the sin." I want to love the people in my life regardless of what they choose to watch/wear/eat/do. That does not mean that I support them in said actions and it does not mean that I will not speak the truth to them. But it does mean that I choose to love them no matter what because that is the example God has set for us. We can speak truth to them all we want, but the final judgment is God's to make. Also, how many times have we heard that condemnation is the tool of Satan? Calling someone out or speaking truth into their lives is one thing, but condemning one another is NEVER okay. Okay, now that I've got that all out... *Sighs*
Hope ya'll are having a lovely day!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Help Wanted
I need some help of the computer-nerdery variety. I am trying to pay my student loan online. I have accessed the website before, but I think it was on my brother's computer. My mom can access the site on her computer. But on my computer for some reason it goes to the randomly selected search engine and says the page cannot be found. Any suggestions on what is causing this and how I can fix it would be greatly appreciated...
Monday, October 17, 2005
All about the apple...
Now, as much as the title sounds like it could be a post about Adam and Eve, I will quickly kill the rumor that I may be posting anything intellectually stimulating today. The real reason I am posting is because my belly is filled with an incredibly good piece of apple pie that my mother made this morning. It is made from apples that we purchased at Apple Hill yesterday. I also purchased a bottle of probably the best champagne I've tasted in my life to be used for Mrs. Salty's official send-off this weekend. I am looking forward to drinking it and perhaps eating some apples with it!
And now I am considering going to bed. I'm wondering if I'm coming down with something because I've been going to bed REALLY early (for me) for the last week, and I've been taking naps in the afternoons after work and I'm still tired. Ugh! Down with cold and flu season. Oh well, at least my bed is warm and cozy, and at least I'm enjoying it because I need the rest and not because I'm mopey and depressed! :)
Well, now that I have posted about ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I will head for bed to sleep for what will most certainly be "not long enough" when I wake up.
And now I am considering going to bed. I'm wondering if I'm coming down with something because I've been going to bed REALLY early (for me) for the last week, and I've been taking naps in the afternoons after work and I'm still tired. Ugh! Down with cold and flu season. Oh well, at least my bed is warm and cozy, and at least I'm enjoying it because I need the rest and not because I'm mopey and depressed! :)
Well, now that I have posted about ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I will head for bed to sleep for what will most certainly be "not long enough" when I wake up.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Just so I don't forget:
I want to use this line later. Perhaps I will post the finished product.
I have watched you drift away until you were
but a speck in the distance.
I have watched you travel with other ships
but still I stay transfixed, waiting for you to return.
I have watched you drift away until you were
but a speck in the distance.
I have watched you travel with other ships
but still I stay transfixed, waiting for you to return.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
A fun little quizzle... Try it if you dare!
7 years ago...
How old were you? 19
What grade were you in? Sophomore in college
Where did you go to school? University of Nevada, Reno
Where did you work? Round Table Pizza
Where did you live? Reno, NV
How was your hair style? Straight, as usual, shoulder length, blonde
Did you wear braces? No
Did you wear contacts? No.
Did you wear glasses? No
Who was your best friend? I think it was either Truc-Ha or Jamie. I didn’t have a lot of friends at that awkward time early in college.
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend? Jeremiah... Haven’t had any since after lowering my standards like that...
Who was your celebrity crush? Tom Cruise (I know, what was I thinking?)
Who was your regular-person crush? I don’t think I had one...
Were you a virgin? Yes.
How many piercings did you have? Just my ears
How many tattoos did you have? None yet...
What was your favorite band? No bands, really... Singer, probably Shania Twain
What was your biggest fear? Being alone.
Had you smoked a cigarette yet? No.
Had you gotten drunk or high yet? Drunk: a little, high: never
Had you driven yet? Nope
If so what car(s) did you use? My Chevrolegs
Which of your pets were still alive? Speedy/Turts (a turtle that we’ve had since I was seven and do not know if it’s male or female or how old it was when we got it... also, it’s name is Speedy, but we just call it Turts)
Which members of your family were not born yet? None that I can think of... We haven’t had any babies in my family for a VERY long time...
Did you know the person who sent this to you? Nope...
How old were you? 19
What grade were you in? Sophomore in college
Where did you go to school? University of Nevada, Reno
Where did you work? Round Table Pizza
Where did you live? Reno, NV
How was your hair style? Straight, as usual, shoulder length, blonde
Did you wear braces? No
Did you wear contacts? No.
Did you wear glasses? No
Who was your best friend? I think it was either Truc-Ha or Jamie. I didn’t have a lot of friends at that awkward time early in college.
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend? Jeremiah... Haven’t had any since after lowering my standards like that...
Who was your celebrity crush? Tom Cruise (I know, what was I thinking?)
Who was your regular-person crush? I don’t think I had one...
Were you a virgin? Yes.
How many piercings did you have? Just my ears
How many tattoos did you have? None yet...
What was your favorite band? No bands, really... Singer, probably Shania Twain
What was your biggest fear? Being alone.
Had you smoked a cigarette yet? No.
Had you gotten drunk or high yet? Drunk: a little, high: never
Had you driven yet? Nope
If so what car(s) did you use? My Chevrolegs
Which of your pets were still alive? Speedy/Turts (a turtle that we’ve had since I was seven and do not know if it’s male or female or how old it was when we got it... also, it’s name is Speedy, but we just call it Turts)
Which members of your family were not born yet? None that I can think of... We haven’t had any babies in my family for a VERY long time...
Did you know the person who sent this to you? Nope...
Monday, October 10, 2005
My Confession
You have been around for so long
Drifting in and out of my life
Like a balloon let loose on a windy day
Blowing to and fro, closer and further away.
You never seem to stand still,
Constantly floating away
Until the wind changes, bringing you back to me.
I grasp at a string I cannot reach
Trying to keep you from escaping me yet again
Only to find that you've already gone,
That in fact that you were never in my reach.
I watch the breeze toss you around
Waiting until you're close enough to grab,
Jumping higher each time you pass by,
And still missing every time.
It is time for my confession--
It is time for me to turn and let you go.
I have wasted too much precious time
Watching and waiting for you, just one balloon,
That will never be close enough
And missing all of the others
That may have been within my reach.
Drifting in and out of my life
Like a balloon let loose on a windy day
Blowing to and fro, closer and further away.
You never seem to stand still,
Constantly floating away
Until the wind changes, bringing you back to me.
I grasp at a string I cannot reach
Trying to keep you from escaping me yet again
Only to find that you've already gone,
That in fact that you were never in my reach.
I watch the breeze toss you around
Waiting until you're close enough to grab,
Jumping higher each time you pass by,
And still missing every time.
It is time for my confession--
It is time for me to turn and let you go.
I have wasted too much precious time
Watching and waiting for you, just one balloon,
That will never be close enough
And missing all of the others
That may have been within my reach.
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Who am I?
There is a topic that has been coming up again and again in my life recently and that is the topic of who I am. It has come up in my quiet times, in my book study group, even on Noel's blog just to name a few. More specifically the subject is who I am in God, as He made me to be as opposed to who I've become/tried to become because I thought I should. Right now I'm still through these things trying to figure out what parts are genuinely me and which are the parts that I added because I thought I should.
So here's how this is going to work: I am going to make a list of three qualities that are genuinely me as I was created by God and three qualities that I have come into because of how I thought I "should" be. Then I'd really like it if other people would share three of each (or just one of each) as well.
"Should be" qualities:
1. I have become someone who cannot say no. When people ask me for favors, I don't say no because I "should be" willing to help and to serve. I realize it is important to help and serve, however it is better to do a few things well rather than a lot of things poorly or unenthusiastically. This is one that God is working on with me, making small changes as needed.
2. I am not good at asking people for help/and or prayer. I've touched on this in previous blog posts and I think the reasoning behind it is that I think that I "should be" close enough to God that I should be able to come to Him alone in my weakest moment and have faith that everything will be okay. I think that I "should be" strong enough and independent and faithful enough to not need someone to go to God for me. This is one that God is also working on in me.
3. I think these all come down to pride. This third one is that I think that because I have a degree and because I'm 26 that I "should be" someplace further in my life--that I "should be" working at a better job, that I "should be" married by now, that I "should be" getting ready to have kids.
Who I am:
1. I am a writer. No matter where I work, no matter how unhappy I am with it, none of it is important. God did not create me to make copies--He just provided me with the job that I might be able to pay the bills. No matter how much I dislike work, I can take comfort in knowing that I am a writer.
2. I am a hard worker. When I make commitments, I do my best to make sure I follow through. Even the things I don't enjoy, that I wish I didn't have to do (making copies), I put my all into.
3. I am a fast learner. I am frequently capable of picking things up without much in the way of explanation. Unless of course it's sewing and then I cause small explosions.
Now it's your turn!
So here's how this is going to work: I am going to make a list of three qualities that are genuinely me as I was created by God and three qualities that I have come into because of how I thought I "should" be. Then I'd really like it if other people would share three of each (or just one of each) as well.
"Should be" qualities:
1. I have become someone who cannot say no. When people ask me for favors, I don't say no because I "should be" willing to help and to serve. I realize it is important to help and serve, however it is better to do a few things well rather than a lot of things poorly or unenthusiastically. This is one that God is working on with me, making small changes as needed.
2. I am not good at asking people for help/and or prayer. I've touched on this in previous blog posts and I think the reasoning behind it is that I think that I "should be" close enough to God that I should be able to come to Him alone in my weakest moment and have faith that everything will be okay. I think that I "should be" strong enough and independent and faithful enough to not need someone to go to God for me. This is one that God is also working on in me.
3. I think these all come down to pride. This third one is that I think that because I have a degree and because I'm 26 that I "should be" someplace further in my life--that I "should be" working at a better job, that I "should be" married by now, that I "should be" getting ready to have kids.
Who I am:
1. I am a writer. No matter where I work, no matter how unhappy I am with it, none of it is important. God did not create me to make copies--He just provided me with the job that I might be able to pay the bills. No matter how much I dislike work, I can take comfort in knowing that I am a writer.
2. I am a hard worker. When I make commitments, I do my best to make sure I follow through. Even the things I don't enjoy, that I wish I didn't have to do (making copies), I put my all into.
3. I am a fast learner. I am frequently capable of picking things up without much in the way of explanation. Unless of course it's sewing and then I cause small explosions.
Now it's your turn!
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